My biggest obstacle is my mind. For years I have been a prisoner to my thoughts without realizing it. It seemed natural to pick at myself and find tons of reasons why “I can’t”. I bullied myself and called it self-love.
Its amazing the moment you realize the lies you have been feeding yourself. On one hand it is liberating to know that I can conquer these thoughts. On another hand it is scary to leave these insecurities behind. I have found it easier to complain and find excuses rather than getting up and doing something. There’s always the risk of failure. There is always the fear of what people may think; butI know God did not give me a spirit of fear. I know I am more than a conqueror.
I am in the process of winning my mind back from the enemy. The enemy is Satan. I have granted him access to my thoughts. He has made me miserable and made me think these thoughts were my own. It certainly isn’t easy. Discernment is needed to be able to distinguish thoughts that are of the Lord and thoughts that come from Satan. Do these thoughts bring you peace and harmony? Do they evoke feelings of regret or triumph? I encourage you to check your mind with this bible verse
8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. (Philippians 4:8 NIV)