It has been awhile since I’ve posted. Lots of changes has occurred forcing blogging to take a back seat. I’m excited to get back to writing and sharing my experiences on this blog!
Since my last post I have started a new job and a masters program. This has been a huge adjustment for me but a chapter I’m excited to start. It feels so good to be on a journey where I’m excited to see the fruit of my labor being produced. I’ve never been more involved in my future than now. As things are taking place, I see endless opportunities and goals I never envisioned for myself.
This year my greatest desire is to become more intimate with God. I want to know His voice and hear Him speak in my life. I want to know Him personally and not rely on the testimony of others to know his attributes. Testimonies are powerful and are shared for the glory of God to be revealed. Often times we hear what God is doing in the lives of other people but don’t use the testimonies as fuel to draw closer to God. If my testimony doesn’t set fire into your soul for the Lord then it is in vain. I desire less of myself and more of God.
I have seen that this desire of intimacy with God has revealed some ugliness within me. It has shown me a side of myself that is not glamorous but full of envy, anger and aggression. Drawing closer to God isn’t as glamorous as I imagined. I have been more disgusted with myself and embarrassed. But I know He makes all things new!
I invite you to join me in this new chapter of my life. Im learning more about myself and it is forcing me into a humble position. Choosing to draw near to God means I will not always like the woman I see in the mirror. This woman has not always chosen to be led by the Spirit. This woman has chosen anger over peace and has found countless ways to justify her selfishness. This sounds depressing but there’s no other place I’d rather be! I’m in a perfect place for transformation.
“Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.”
Romans 12:2 NIV
May the joy and peace of the Lord overflow in your life.