Being Transparent

“From the fruit of their mouth a person’s stomach is filled; with the harvest of their lips they are satisfied.”
‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭18:20‬ ‭NIV‬‬


I believe in the power of testimony. It is so important to share our journey with Christ with both believers and non believers. It is our testimony that draws people to God.

There is a greater purpose to my testimony. This is why I started this blog. I know I must share my success and failures with others so that they can learn and be better. It isn’t an easy task for me to do. I’m ashamed to admit but I once was a people  pleaser. I did anything to get away from conflict. I wanted so much for people to like me that I dumbed myself down in public for the entertainment of others.

I believed it was a small price to pay in order to be accepted. I felt worse about myself as I tried to be who I thought was “cool”. This prevented me from knowing myself and now at 26, I feel like I’m just getting to know who I am. As exciting as this new journey has been, I wish it didn’t begin so late.

After I accepted Jesus as my personal savior I had a fire that I couldn’t contain. There was so much I wanted to share. I wanted to be an open book with other Christians because I believe that’s what helps us grow stronger in our faith. I didn’t receive the feedback I expected and for a while I shut myself down. I chose to stop sharing because I thought I was being too transparent.

It wasn’t until God showed me  John 4 that I realized it is my testimony he wants me to share. The woman at the well went to share  the good news of Jesus to anyone she could find.  She even exposed herself, (she was someone who slept with several men), because she found freedom in Christ. God wants us to live in our freedom. He wants us to remove the shackles that prevents us from being real with ourselves and with others.

Yes people will talk about me and not like what I share, but that is a small price to pay for the greater glory of God. I pray whoever reads this may be be blessed and compelled to do the same. Come out from hiding and stand tall as the beautiful creation you are!

God loves you.

Live Freely

In my previous post, I spoke about freedom of the mind and how realizing this impacted me greatly. Not too long after that post went up, those same thoughts came back to haunt me. I thought to myself “THIS IS CRAZY!” I just found inner peace. How can these thoughts resurface?  I thought they were gone and fell into the fiery pits of hell where they came from.

When a battle is won, you don’t  throw your armor off in the middle of the field. As Christians we are to ALWAYS be aware of our surroundings. How does this impact our mind?

“Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.”
‭‭Philippians‬ ‭4:8‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Our minds must always be on Christ. We must always fill ourselves with the word so that our minds and spirits can be renewed. After that post I was on cloud nine. Because I felt free I didn’t dive into my word or meditate with God like I was doing before. I became vulnerable to my old thoughts because I wasn’t on guard.

True freedom means I choose to walk with Christ daily. I know the only way to feel his presence is if I read and pray. I know that to continue in His peace I must die to my flesh and surrender my mind. It’s the only way I can recognize which  thoughts are His and which thoughts I should rebuke.

“but whoever drinks the water I give them will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give them will become in them a spring of water welling up to eternal life.””
‭‭John‬ ‭4:14‬ ‭NIV‬‬

When we stay hidden in Christ our needs are fulfilled and our future is secure.  Focusing on that daily will help us to turn away negative thoughts and not sink back into our old ways. Always stay thirsty for Christ.


Have You Cleaned Out Your Mind?

We are taught the importance of decluttering our spaces. Cleaning and removing things we no longer use has proven to be very beneficial. We are able to think more clearly and our moods are improved. We must do the same with our minds. Our minds store so many memories, and ideas. It is easy to see how forgiveness can be hard for us. It  is crucial that we take the time to sift through our mind so that we can decipher our own thoughts from the enemy.

“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.”
‭‭John‬ ‭10:10‬ ‭NIV

Yesterday morning I took my son for a walk. Prior to that I received a text from someone about being cautious with my son. I spent the first part of my walk upset. I felt like the person was calling me a horrible mother. I brought these feelings to God and he revealed my broken heart. I found that text message offensive because I lacked confidence in myself. I didn’t realize I was dealing with self-esteem issues. I allowed Satan to plant seeds in my mind which made me believe that people were out to get me. It became very difficult to distinguish which thoughts were mind and of the Lord from Satan’s thoughts. As I continued to poor my heart to God, I was able to see clearly why I was truly upset. There was fear and pain hidden inside me.  I never took the time to release them. They remained stored and packed away. It wasn’t until I began to pray and clean out my mind, that these things resurfaced. By giving my mind up to Christ, I was able to rid these thoughts and make room to receive word from God.

“Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.”
‭‭Romans‬ ‭12:2‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Coming to this epiphany was so real. I felt peace in my heart. My mind has been free from the reign of Satan. I am not what He has made me believe I am. I am not a failure nor am I weak. I have power that dwells within me. Chains in my heart have been broken and it’s all because I lifted my cares to the Lord. Negative thoughts I am able to distinguish as not mine because I know the plans He has for me.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭29:11‬ ‭NIV‬

I pray you allow yourself to go before the Lord and really pour out your deepest troubles. He makes all things new. He can renew your mind and restore your joy! Take the moment to cast your cares upon him. He loves you!



My Biggest Obstacle

My biggest obstacle is my mind.  For years I have been a prisoner to my thoughts without realizing it. It seemed natural to pick at myself and find tons of reasons why “I can’t”.  I bullied myself and called it self-love.

Its amazing the moment you realize the lies you have been feeding yourself. On one hand it is liberating to know that I can conquer these thoughts. On another hand it is scary to leave these insecurities behind. I have found it easier to complain and find excuses rather than getting up and doing something. There’s always the risk of failure. There is always the fear of what people may think; butI know God did not give me a spirit of fear. I know I am more than a conqueror.

I am in the process of winning my mind back from the enemy. The enemy is Satan. I have granted him access to my thoughts. He has made me miserable and made me think these thoughts were my own. It certainly isn’t easy. Discernment is needed to be able to distinguish thoughts that are of the Lord and thoughts that come from Satan. Do these thoughts bring you peace and harmony? Do they evoke feelings of regret or triumph? I encourage you to check your mind with this bible verse

8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. (‭Philippians‬ ‭4‬:‭8‬ NIV)