The beginning of this month was rough. My husband’s traveling schedule increased so Mommy duty was wearing me out. With two young boys and a child on the way I know that my energy is limited and it’s FRUSTRATING!! I want to be super mom🤦🏾♀️. (Insert picture of me in a cape that is blowing freely in the wind).But as Lisa Nichols said “you can’t feed others from an empty saucer”(Her quote was more elegantly written). I was running on empty and not getting enough physical, spiritual and emotional rest.
I know when I reach this low state I have drifted far away from God. So I crawled back into His presence… very slowly and I cried. I used every word I could think of to explain this lowly state I was feeling and when I ran out of words I grunted and screamed.
And the Lord answered me. I need to be still and accept where I am. Resting season isn’t over for me. He is trying to fill me up with fruit of the Holy Spirit and His wisdom. He reminded me that I have a network of people around me whom I can access in times of need. I am not alone.
Resting is NOT a word that does brings me immediate relief. I don’t feel like I’m doing enough if I’m not overworked and burnt out. Imagine a well that is running low on water. It has little use for its thirsty seekers if all they can draw out is mud. I’ve been feeding my kids and my husband mud. Mud was displayed through my short temper and lack of patience. It’s not an easy clean up but I’m allowing God to fill me up again so I can wash out the mud that is covering my family. It is then that I can truly be successful in my role.
“Your wife shall be like a fruitful vine Within your house, Your children like olive plants Around your table.”
Psalms 128:3 NASB
I encourage you all to find comfort in the presence of the Holy Spirit. Be slow and intentional so that when God cues us to rest we can do so eagerly. With rest comes the pouring of his Spirit, filling in the cracks and healing the bruises we have sustained along the narrow path. Stay thirsty my friends so that you too can get a refill.
Sb:// Totally not judging you if the Erica Varner song or Dos Equis Ad popped into your head. 😁